Welcome My Confident Dolls,
Confidence Is YOU three simple words that came to mind on a summer afternoon while taking a walk with my sister. As I was telling her I want to do something with my writing where I can help females know their worth, find their confidence & to know how beautiful they are. The name just came to mind knowing that it wasn't too long ago I found my confidence and found my worth. Some People may have looked at me and say how can I help someone else when it seemed I wasn't going through it. This is When I Say NEVER JUDGE A BOOK BY IT'S COVER!!! Let's fast forward to the year before, I was young, smart, beautiful but I lacked confidence and had low self-esteem. It all went down hill for me when the man I thought I would be married to and have my little ones with broke my heart into millions of pieces. Imagine putting your all into a person for 6 long years to only turn around and get hurt by them. I was lost after we broke up, I went to a depression that most people didn't know about. I felt as if I didn't want to live anymore. I didn't have the confidence and the self esteem to pick myself up to move on. It was hard, I was always pretending to be alright when deep down inside I was fighting for my next breath. As I look at my mother and sister I knew I couldn't hurt them by doing something so unforgettable which I tried to do a few years back. I knew I deserved to be happy and live my life so I can accomplish all of my dreams and more. One day I woke up and said the only person to make me happy was ME. I knew I needed to find my confidence and my happiness to be the person I wanted to be. I couldn't be sad and depressed anymore, it wasn't worth it. So I searched for my confidence, it was in me. I digged deep down for it and I pulled it out when I found it. I knew right then Confidence was me and I was going to wear my confidence each and everyday for the rest of my life. It was going to be my permanent accessory and I would never leave the house without it. It wasn't easy finding my confidence but it was worth it. I was tired of pretending to be someone else, it's not like being the other person made me happy. It actually made me feel worse. I knew I was pretty but didn't feel pretty, I guess my weight had something to do with it. I wasn't your average size as society would call it, I was plus size. It wasn't really a problem for me until I I got to High School. I wanted to be down and wear 7 jeans like my friends but designer jeans didn't come in my size. I was still fly with my Old Navy and Gap Jeans But I still felt I was an outsider. I felt like I was a joke and it made me feel unpretty. But once again I knew I wanted to be happy, I knew I wanted to feel beautiful because truth is I was beautiful. I knew I could be confident because I truly was and I knew my worth because I knew I didn't deserve to get hurt by anyone. Once I was happy, I started to live the life I imagined. I was truly happy and to this day Iam the happiest girl ever. I won't lie I have my moments cause life wouldn't be fair if it didn't throw curve balls at you but you live and you learn. After that talk with my sister, I wrote my heart out in a book. I told myself this book will be read by millions one day. I wanted my book to inspire and to motivate females all over the world that confidence is them as well. For the very first time I believed in myself and knew I would make this dream of mines come true. A few months later I met Someone named Tionna Smalls that I had admired from watching on TV as well as reading her book. I told her my goals and she said "Go For It". Not knowing a few months later she would say "I want to help you make your dreams later" and a few months later October 2012 I signed a book contract with her Publishing company Talk Dat Ish. I believed in myself and made it happen. For once in my life I wasn't scared and I let my confidence lead me to my dreams. On March 12, 2013 my very first book "Confidence Is You From FashionTo Flirting The Plus Size Guide In Having Confidence In Everything You Do!" Came out. This is why I always say "Believe In Yourself & Make Your Dreams Come True". If I didn't take the time to think of me and find my confidence I wouldn't have found my happiness. I found who I was,my happiness, my worth , my confidence all at once for me to be who I wanted to be today. Now with the book being out and read by so many, Iam so blessed that I made the decision to find my confidence. I honestly believe it was God showing me what my true purpose is in life. I knew I was destined for greatness but to afraid to go for it. We all have fears and insecurities but I don't want you to live your life thinking you're not capable of being who you are and to go for your dreams. My goal is to inspire and motivate you to love yourself, know your worth, appreciate who you are, find your confidence & go for your dreams. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE! You just have to believe in yourself and go for it. I found my confidence and Iam here to help you find yours. Confidence Is Not Only ME but It's You As Well, Confidence Is US.
Confident Love From Me To You,
Yanika
