My Confident Birthday Suit <3.

Green?! "No I don't think so", "Those pants are cute but I don't know, people will stare". Those shoes are nice but "I may look funny walking in them".Pink lipstick ?! "Oh hell no, I'll look funny". This was me a few years ago, the not so confident Yanika. I would go shopping and always see things I would love to wear but my insecurities will get in the way. I would make things up in my head thinking people would stare and say things behind my back just so I wouldn't buy it. If  I did buy certain outfits that I did like, I Would feel so uncomfortable while wearing it. I know I had to snap out of it soon and kick my insecurities to the side.

I know I was pretty whether my size was a small or not but going through the things I was going through at that very moment I just wasn't confident within myself. When  dealing with a person that doesn't make you feel beautiful,  doesn't appreciate you, doesn't treat you the way you're suppose to be treated. You lose yourself, you feel unpretty and you wish to be someone else. This is why I always tell you my confident dolls to know your worth. No one should have that affect on you or make you feel that you aren't pretty or worth it. I knew I was pretty and I knew my worth but I was just stuck with this person. Once I was completely fed up and had the courage to leave him and dig deep inside myself to find ME again, my confidence came back. It was no way I was going back to having low self esteem and just being unhappy. I knew my happiness mattered and I just wanted to smile again. 

Fashion was important to me, Fashion is a statement in where you can identify yourself and showcase the person you want to be. I love fashion and I knew I needed to get those negative thoughts out of my head. It was hard cause its not easy letting go of your insecurities overnight. But with prayer, time and my confidence shining through my smile, I knew I would get those thoughts out of my mind. 

3 years later confidence is you is now born and my fashion thoughts doesn't involve "I Don't Know" Or "Iam Afraid Of How I Will Look". Now if I see something I like, I buy and I rock it. Once you feel comfortable in your skin, nobody can't tell you nothing. The person that matters the most is you, as long as you're happy then nothing else matters. One thing I learned is people will always have an opinion, so why please anyone else but yourself. You can't make others happy while you're being unhappy. If you want to wear color, sequins, crop tops, high waist jeans, a freakum dress etc then you wear it. No one can tell you what to wear and what not to wear. Society will make you feel at times only certain people can wear certain things. Like crop tops isn't for plus size girls, or sequins. Kiss my ass society, Iam going to rock what I want and be the Ish in it. 

So if you feel you can't where certain because of what others may say or think, my confident dolls remember your happiness. Don't be miserable or look at others and say "I wish I can wear that". That was so me in the past, I would see others and say to myself "she looks nice, I wish I could wear that". But then I had to tell myself "I can so wear that", I just had to find my confidence and do so. Nothing is meant for just one person to wear, Iam tired of hearing people say certain people can't wear this or that. Stop being afraid and just wear what you feel like wearing. Once you're confident in yourself, everything flows. 

Let your confidence be the best accessory you wear at all times and remind yourself that no matter what you are beautiful. Confidence Is Like Saying "F@ck You, Iam The Sh*t" Without Opening Your Mouth. Say It With Your Walk, Your Smile, Your Entire Being. And don't let or allow anyone to take that away from you. Be Confident, Be You and wear what will make you happy whether people stare or share their opinions. Who cares?! Like I said as long as you're comfortable and you're happy then that's all that matters. 

Believe or not I had 48 hours to find my birthday outfit, I knew I wanted to be comfortable and chill. I didn't want nothing fancy or glamorous, but I wanted to stand out. So I went to one of my favorite stores Forever 21 and here you have it....My Confident Birthday Outfit. The whole outfit, from my green top, to my bag, to my colorful pants to even my shoes is from Forever 21 for under a $100. I always say shop on your budget, you don't need a huge budget to buy clothes you love & would wear. Shop within your needs, it was chill and I felt comfortable in it. I loved all the colors in the pants and the shoes, it was just want I wanted to wear. I loved it with no negative thoughts besides "I look fly", I brought it and rocked it out. 

Be Bold, Be Confident, Be You And wear what you want to wear and make a statement in it. Confidence is you My Beautiful Confident Dolls. 

Confident Love From Me To You

                      XoXo

                     Yanika 

ALWAYS KNOW YOUR WORTH!!!!!

As women we know exactly what we want and what we need. We say we want a guy to treat us like the queen we are, spoil us, be kind to us, care and love us how we are suppose to be treated. That's what we want and that's what we deserve. But for me  It took years to realize that I was worth more than what I actually was receiving. I was giving but not getting nothing in return but heartbreaks and lies. My first real boyfriend was in HS, I was a freshman and he was a sophomore. We made it official at the end of the year, everything was good. It sounds crazy but he knew how to treat a girl. He was very kind to me and really did everything to see me smile. He treated me exactly how I should be treated but I was young and  I didn't want to have such a commitment. I wanted to hang out with my friends after school and on the weekends, I didn't always want to be with him all the time. So we didn't last as long as I thought we would of but hey 11 years later we are best friends now. After my relationship with him I was single for a long time, I really wanted to enjoy being young and free. And then one day I met someone, I didn't think of it as something serious but it turned out to be. In the beginning of course it was good but I would say 6 months into it  things changed. I knew certain things wasn't normal such as us not going out in public, not being able to go to his house, it was a few clues indeed. I knew it wasn't right but I had already liked him so much. As time went on and the deeper I was falling for him I knew it would be hard for me to leave him. He would do things I wasn't proud of leading me to cry every chance I was alone. I wanted to let it go but I couldn't. My insecurities was getting in the way of  making me think I wasn't enough for someone else  to appreciate me for who I was. I let the relationship take over me and break me down mentally. I stayed, we break up, get back together and I stayed even longer than before. He put me through hell, once again I knew I deserved better but I stayed. He was my drug and I needed him knowing it wasn't good for me. Until one day, 5 years later I Know 5 years later he did the unthinkable which left me numb, my heart broken in a million pieces and my mind blank. I knew that night,at that very moment  I was too good for him and deserved so much more. It was my time to let him go and I did, it was hard. I felt into a deep depression,  I needed my confidence, I needed to find my worth, I needed to find myself. It took awhile for me to get back into the grove of things but slowly and surely I was back to being myself again. I felt better and I just wanted to focus on me which I did. I was going to school and I was working, I wasn't interested in no one. But I had my needs so I started talking to someone that had my attention. In my mind it was sex only, no feelings and hardly no communication. I didn't want to be back in the deep black hole I was in, my guard was up so high. In the beginning it was fun, he made me laugh. He was my friend first then my lover, it was just a few conversations then sex and then a simple see you next time. It went on for months but the more time I spent with him, the more I was falling for him. I knew it wouldn't work, I knew it wouldn't be a fairy tale ending. A few months went by again and I kept saying to myself, IT'S JUST SEX while my heart was like Girl Wake Up. Did I wake up?! Nope, I was all in and what's so crazy he made me think he was all in as well then boom we hit our 2 year mark. Yes still as lovers and friends. Until he told me the truth but it was too late. At that moment I said I wouldn't settle anymore and I would just wait for someone to find me that is worth my love. I couldn't allow my heart to feel anything else besides love. I loved myself more than anyone in the world at this point and it was time I took care of me. It was also time I received the same love I was giving to others. As I said " Never Allow A Man To Be Your Downfall or Your Weakness, Know Your Worth". When you are in love sometimes you are blind and allow the things they do to continue because you are blinded by it. If you're worth it to him, he will make you smile, pay attention to you and he will do anything necessary that he can to keep you by his side. It's That Simple!!! Some Dudes Will Have The Perfect Girl, Say She's Worth It But Do Everything He Isn't Suppose To Do To Lose Her. This Is Why My Confident Dolls, I Always Tell You To Know Your Worth & Never Settle. If He Isn't Being Consistent With Keeping A Smile On Your Face & Giving You The Attention You Deserve. LET HIM GO!!!! I Let Guys Be My Weakness & My Downfall Because I Loved Them & I Wanted Them To Love Me Back. So Ladies When He Hurts You, Lies To You, Mistreat You, Isn't There For You & Isn't Loving You The Way You're Suppose To Be Loved.ONCE AGAIN LET HIM GO!!!! You Deserve The Moon & The Stars, You Deserve To Be Treated Like A Queen & Be Appreciated. If or When He Comes Trying To Get You Back, Remember Your Worth It!!! Remember What You Deserve. Remember That You Are A Queen & You Deserve The World. I Knew I Deserved  More But My Weakness For These Guys Took Over My  Worth, Don't Let It Happen To You. Don't Waste Your Time On Someone That Isn't Doing What's Necessary To Keep You. If He Wants You, Trust & Believe His Actions Will Match Your Worth. Now I can look back and call my experience lessons learned, I had to go through a couple frogs for the right one to find me. I can say now at this very moment Iam happy and I am being treated like the queen I am. I don't know if it will last forever but Iam loving every second we share and if you ask me I would love for it to last forever. If you don't have your Prince Charming just yet, be patient he will find you. You're worth it & you're amazing, Love will find you. 

Confident Love From Me To You

                      Xoxo, Yanika 

New Year= A Better You With Bigger Dreams.

Happy New Years My Confident Dolls, It is 2014 the year where I say is the year to get drunk in Success, Love, Greatness & Happiness. This is the year to let go of all your fears/doubts and do what you are destined to do. Don't allow your fears to hold you back this year. So many of us are afraid to let go of our fears not knowing in order to be completely happy and achieve our goals, we have to let go of what's holding us back. What are you really afraid of? Do you have a fear of failing?! How do you know you will fail?! How can you fail if you believe in yourself ?! LET GO OF ALL YOUR FEARS. No More Fears In 2014, it's time to conquer your dreams. It's nothing like a fresh start and a new beginning. Do what makes you happy, live, laugh and love. They may be some disappointments but it's life. Sometimes things happen you have no control over but don't let it break you, let it motivate you even more. This year I didn't have no New Years resolutions, I just told myself not to be in the same position I was in today, next week. Everyday is a new day for you to grow and learn more. I told myself I will just continue to grow and start each day for a better tomorrow. Nobody holds your future but you. You're responsible for your future, your happiness and for your dreams to come true. This is why I say let go of all your fears and do what makes you happy. New Year, Same You but it will be a better version of yourself focusing on what's important. There is so much life to live, so much goals I know you have to accomplish and with gods help everything will fall into place. If you're waiting on perfect timing or the perfect moment, it won't happen. You know what you have to do, people get comfortable and they stop growing. They stop going for what they want and become satisfied with what they have. Create the perfect time, the perfect opportunity and the perfect situation and keep on going. When you have goals that makes you come out your comfort zone, you will find talents and abilities you never even thought you had. Unless a commitment is made, there will only be promises and hopes. Make a commitment to yourself and your dreams that this year you will accomplish it all with gods grace. Like Oprah Winfrey once said "Think like a queen, a queen is not afraid to fail. Failure is another stepping stone to greatness". Don't let nothing stop you, even if it doesn't go your way today. Remember there is always tomorrow, Believe in yourself. I believe in you, don't allow fears and negativity in your way of accomplishing your best. This is your year to shine and take on what is going to change your life. F*ck being normal when greatness is a choice, have the mind state and intentions of being great. Do you think Beyonce told herself she was normal, I think not from day one she told herself, she was going to be great and give her all to everything she does. Now look years later she is on the top of the game coming out with a surprise album to show the world her greatness. She had a vision and each and everyday she is giving us a piece of her vision to blow us away. So be the best that you can be and give your passion your all. There is nothing in this world that you can't accomplish, anything and everything is possible to accomplish. Believe in Yourself, Dreams Do Come True!

Confident Love From Me To You!

        Xoxo, Yanika