Fashionista Friday, A Fashion Diva With Ambition Featuring Celia Ayala.

Hello My Confident Dolls,

So about a week ago, I was thinking of new topics to feature on the blog and I came up with Fashionista Friday, A Fashion Diva With Ambition. We all love fashion as well as want to be inspired by it. I wanted to feature females doing their thing, being the independent Queen they are while being fashionable doing it. I follow so many fashion divas and get inspired by them all, it was time I do something for them each and every Friday so we can learn a few tips and tricks. It's nothing like getting inspired by someone to create YOUR OWN STYLE! 

The first person I thought of was Ms Celia Ayala aka @ladyshears on Instagram. I've been following this beauty for over a year and her style is impeccable. It doesn't matter what she puts on from dresses to skirts to even a simple Tshirt and jeans, she kills it every time. She isn't your typical size or what society would say is not the perfect size 2 but it doesn't stop her from being FASHIONABLE and wearing what she wants to wear. She is CONFIDENT  in her skin and embraces her body and most of all her curves. I love how she isn't afraid to express her style and I love how confident she is. I wanted to know what inspired her style, what are her favorite fashion pieces, her ideas on fashion and more. When I reached out to Celia for the interview, she gladly said yes and took time out of her busy schedule to answer some questions for me. 

Celia is 27 years old from New York and although she always had CONFIDENCE, she truly discovered the power in herself as a woman in the past recent couple of years in how to present  herself. She's has been a licensed cosmetologist for a little over a decade but developed a passion for artistry very young in life. As a colorist dealing with all kinds of hair textures, lengths and unique hair colors, she describes it to be like designing an outfit with each client at a time. She explains that you have to know what goes with what and what looks good on who. But it all starts with a blank bare canvas and having the creativity to see that bigger picture. What she loves more about her career is how it easily ties into the fashion world. At work for her the necessary all black uniform is something she incorporates in her daily life both in and out of the salon as well. She plays with mixing black textures and fabrics, fur and leather, metal and spike accents stating she's pretty edgy. She love that no matter the current trend all black is timeless.

 It can be bold, dressed up or down for day and evening. She also have another side of complete bright colors, mixed patterns and then there's the side of neutrals khakis, olives, blush tones and more claiming she is the one to wear it all! Fashion rules never scared her as long as she doesn't look foolish which she never does. She will wear white in the winter and crop tops against all stereotypes. But she believe in making sure nothing is see through or too clingy. Other than that She will say go for whatever YOU feel sexy in! Everyone who knows her knows her absolute go to favorite items which she can't live without is a great pair of nude pumps or black leather leggings. Not all leather but she own at least 30 pair with tuxedo stripes or leather piping and knee patches. She think they both make a plain outfit chic and can be worn any season any time of day. 

Currently her favorite place to shop is Nordstrom Rack! She had a bit of an obsession with kimonos this summer and they kept her wearing a few not everyone had. They always carry great blouses and tunic tops. She shop everywhere from Macys to forever 21 to HM and a ton online, those would include city chic, asos, boohoo, simply be and tons of boutiques. She does have a weird rule about not repeating anything. Even before social media was huge she could mix and match a few items and make 75 new creative outfits but she  just preferred not being seen in the same outfit twice. Celia feels there were too many great clothes in her closet and in life to not try it all. I AGREE!!! 

 She is so  looking forward to fall because she love love layers and big bags and scarves. Her favorite morning is a cool crisp one with enough sun for her oversized shades and enough breeze for her oversized cardigan, great fitting jeans, flowy or fitted top, a scarf wrapped figure eight around her neck, some type of boot and a large bag resting on her forearm. LOVE!!!! She also mentioned that her fall time perfume are amber and vanilla notes. Can you tell Fall in NYC is her absolute favorite? 

When girls ask her how she know things go together or how could they wear something, she offer her little tip/secret. If she just gotten a specific piece she want to make the focus of her outfit she run to google or Pinterest and search the item in outfits. WHAT AN AMAZING TIP!!!! For instance 'black leather skater skirt' she would enter the exact piece and add 'outfit ideas' to the end. After going through 100 pics she usually see her interpretation of how it's meant to be worn right but it's nice to add your twist to it. My Confident Dolls always make sure IT IS YOUR STYLE!!!! She may not like the chunky shoe with the outfit and opt for something her style. As well  see a combination she never even thought of. The key to personal style is just that - YOUR PERSONALITY!! Don't get stuck trying to wear the peplum dress if you don't think you'll be confident in it all night. Instead break it up into a skirt and top, add a belt or go for a different look all together if you feel it isn't working. Sometimes she think a style may play out and then she's in her mirror like "oh hell no!" 60 try ons later she may have figured something out. 

Sounds like a lot of drama over herself but YOU ARE YOUR WALKING ADVERTISEMENT! . She loves  any reason to dress up and usually don't step out looking like she didn't think she was going to be seen lol because it happens and you can't find excuses once you're caught looking busted. But between long salon hours, juggling home life and finding time on the weekends she find any excuse to be cute and done up. She probably balance it all by always planning places to go out after work with friends or just hanging out with her boyfriend. She does feel she is constantly shopping for that next outfit idea. She get made fun of because while she's out she will be like "oh this would be great for a BBQ in the summer"  but the rolling eyes of those around her are saying "you know you're not going to no damn BBQ you're just buying clothes to buy them and you don't need them". GUILTY!!! That sounds like most of us, I know I have things in my closet with tags on them that I brought from last year. 

It's probably not the best advice that she buy pieces to have them because she know eventually she will need them when she's mid war with her wardrobe. She love that her partner is equally goal oriented, extremely busy yet still finds time to be stylish like herself. Hell that's what caught our eye discovering each other on IG.  We both think it's important to look our best, it helps you feel your best which will ultimately make you perform your best. What better CONFIDENCE boost than knowing you're looking the part for whatever you're trying to conquer that day! She would say CONFIDENCE is a major part of her brand, and that's a FACT! She promotes beauty and style so her clients has to see apparent beauty and style. But she have to be CONFIDENT  enough to deliver exactly what she say she's going to provide for the client. So her CONFIDENCE  stems from the reward she feel of being great at what she does consistently.

Overall CONFIDENCE IS ME because I own it and believe it and I don't think anyone can take away from another persons CONFIDENCE. If you have it you won't be bothered by people who feel differently towards you and if you don't have it yet that's ok too, at some point you will address those flaws and then learn how to dress those flaws says Celia on why CONFIDENCE is her. 

My Confident Dolls wear what it is you want to wear, DON'T LIMIT YOURSELF! Yes they may be people talking or even judging you and it's ok. I've learned that you have to live your life for you and do the things that you want to do to be HAPPY. Don't tell yourself "I won't look good in it or Iam too big to wear anything like that", how would you know if you haven't even tried to wear it? Stop with the excuses and the negative thinking. WEAR WHAT YOU WANT TO WEAR AND LOOK GOOD WHILE DOING SO. Celia really shared with us her favorite pieces to what she loves to wear, wear she shops, everything and more to give you the CONFIDENCE you want more so need. Be Confident, BE YOURSELF, Be the fashionable diva I know you are capable of being and keep making your dreams a reality. 

Celia you're a sweetheart, I remember the first time I meeting you at Plus Fashion Night Out last year. You are genuine, humble and full of life. Thank You for being part of CIY and giving us some Confidence to be ourselves. Confidence Is YOU Celia Always. Btw we need a shopping date soon ❤️ 

    A Confident Love From Me To You

                    Xoxo Yanika 

A Confident Tuesday Transformation Featuring Chardline Chanel-Faiteau.

It's been a few weeks since I've written a blog on a healthy transformation. We all need inspiration and motivation when it comes to weight loss. It's a struggle for most of us, I know it is for me but each and everyday I push myself because I know Iam capable of one day reaching my goal. My confident Dolls DON'T GIVE UP, I know you want to especially after not seeing any results but KEEP ON PUSHING. One day all your hard work will pay off. 

Say Hello Charline Chanel Faiteau, I've been following this beauty for quite some time and she is absolutely a sweetheart and true inspiration. Her wight loss journey is something she shares and talks about to help others. Charline is a 26 years old Boston resident, she works as the education and outreach investigation for the office of fair housing and equity from 9 to 5 but 24/7 she is a Plus Size Blogger, a fitness aficionado, a paleo rat and an all around ball of excess energy. My Confident Dolls never say you don't have time to do what's necessary to help you on your weight loss journey. When you want something, you will make time for it. The driving force behind the beginning of Charline weight loss was a series of diagnoses that she revived. She was 327lbs ( at her last DR appointment in 2012) and that's when her Doctor told her that she was pre-diabetic, had high cholesterol and she kept on suggesting that she get the gastric sleeve surgery. At that very moment Charline knew she had to make a change, but she didn't know the best way to go about it. 

She didn't want to just settle by having the surgery when she never gave herself a chance. Almost 3 years later, she lost 100lbs on her own. She knew she could do it and she did by changing her outlook on fitness and food. She started her weight loss journey with EATING! She started reading this book called "EAT" by DR Ian Smith, it truly revolutionized the way she looked at food. Once she realized what the food industries have been doing for years, she changed her eating habits and then slowly started adding work out routines by 3 different trainers. She took a series of classes that both helped her with cardio and strength training. ( which she shared with us to do) 

(set Aside 20 mins in the morning to do this workout) 

What motivated Charline is that she knew she wanted to have a family one day. She knew that having all these conditions before motherhood would hinder a lot. She thought so much about her future and what it could look like that it made her forget about the cookies, cake and other things. Her eating habits has changed to low carb to NO CARB! Paleo is a great lifestyle that Charline is doing and it works for her. Some of you may wonder what is Paleo? It's majority plants and meats, nothing processed, nothing package or can.  No soda, milks, dairy, refined sugar, cornfield meat, farmed fish, and sodium based seasoning. It's a lot but she eliminated all of those things and stated to notice how much energy she had. 

Many find themselves losing weight for the benefit of others, Charline advice to them is ONLY LOSE WEIGHT FOR YOURSELF! Losing weight for someone else doesn't produce the same drive as losing weight for your own sustainability, health, and life. Remember the person you are losing weight for isn't putting ANY of the work that you are putting in. JUST DO IT FOR YOU! Charline tips to someone who wants to lose weight is to reach out to those who are on their own personal journey. 

She learned from a friend @jadeallwaze who gave her some great tips which she ran with. Nothing beats actually seeing someone account of weight loss who started exactly like you did. Does Charline plan on maintaining the figure she has now and she said "I don't care about what my figure looks like" but she plans on maintaining her health by running at least 3 miles a week as well as continuing PALEO. 

Confidence Is ME Because I WORKED FOR IT says Charline. 

You Can Follow Charline On Instagram At @fabulouslyfat2fit, Follow Her For Great Inspiration And Motivation. Thank You Charline For Being CIY Tuesday Transformation Confident Doll, You are an Inspiration and Confidence Will Always Be YOU. 

( Charline & I At Curves Rock Weekend In Baltimore In 2013, First Time Meeting Her After Months Of Talking On IG) 

Remember My Confident Dolls Rome wasn't build in a day, it takes a lot of hard work and dedication but you can do it. Once you are 100% ready, trust me you will do it. Don't think it's impossible to do, BELIEVE and ACHIEVE. 

   A Confident Love From Me To You

                  Xoxo Yanika 

 

He Isn't The One Who broke Your Heart.

Are you afraid of getting your heartbroken again?! As for me Iam terrified, the pain that I went through is something I NEVER EVER want to feel again. When your heart is cramping over and over again because the one you thought was the one broke it into millions of pieces without caring. Looking back now Iam thankful I went through what I went through because not only did it help me become a stronger person, it made me realize he wasn't the one for me. Despite me learning from the situation, I still didn't deserve the pain I went through and I still wouldn't want to feel that pain again. Even tho now years later Iam in a relationship and my heart is healed with his love, Iam still scared. No relationship is perfect, neither is Beyoncé and Jay-Z relationship. Trust me they go through their ish in the midst of surfboarding and making music. NO RELATIONSHIP IS PERFECT, you will have your ups and downs with your significant other.

 My boyfriend and I have our moments but what makes us better is not only the love we have for one another is communication as well. Communication is the number 1 key in any relationship, if you can't express how you feel and tell him what's on your mind then that relationship isn't for you. I was afraid to communicate in the past due to getting shut down every time I tried to say a word in my last relationship. So when I started my new relationship I had a fear but my boyfriend said how can we make things better if we don't talk. He was so right, so when I feel a way vice Versa we talk no matter what. But I won't lie to you, I still have fears of getting shut down but that's when I remember he isn't the one who broke my heart. 

Ever wanted to do something for your significant other and you start thinking about what you used to do for your EX and then you think about how he hurt you so you fear to do anything nice for the one you're with now.  If you feel this way, your significant other can't suffer for what your EX did to you. You have to let that go, the past is the past and your Ex is in the past. Yes I understand he hurt you and your heart was broken but your heart has healed since then. You can't let what you are capable of doing and being the good woman that you are because of the past. Let It Go!!! Stop being selfish, you have an amazing man and you're afraid of showing him all the possibilities he has with you. Being afraid of showing him how amazing you are each and everyday because of the fear you have of getting hurt will make him walk away. One thing I tell myself all the time, yes my heart was broken but it has healed again. I know that if I am faced with another broken heart I know in due time it will heal again. It's part of life, you live and you learn. 

As I always say if something happens between you and the person you love don't think you aren't worth it or it's your fault. It just didn't work out, but don't stop being the loving person that you are because of the broken heart you feel or felt. As much as Iam in love now it's still a part of me which I call reality that reminds me things happen. It's not being negative or thinking negative, it's being realistic. I know you've been with someone you thought you would spend the rest of your life with, Are you with them now?! Maybe not, so you always have to keep in mind that things happen but that doesn't mean once again you aren't worth it. 

Stop being so scared, stop having a fear that he will hurt you and show him as well as give him the love and affection which he deserves. Iam spoiled and I have my ways and at times if I don't get my way I have an attitude. My mind won't think positive about the situation because that little fear of getting hurt again pops up in my head. Here is an example, last week I came back from Canada and I wanted to see my boyfriend. I didn't see him the day I got back, I didn't stress it but the next two days I did to the point I started crying. I know, I know you're probably wondering why. He didn't do anything at all, but I was sad as well as annoyed. I gave him an attitude but I never took the time to ask him why I didn't see him. When I did he said he just been working extra hours and he is tired. Instead of understanding, I flipped. Then the next day while talking to my mother, she said "you can't do that, you let your fears of getting hurt in the way of understanding that he is just working to make a living for himself and your future as well." Then she went on saying "you wanted to see him, so why didn't you bring him lunch or dinner to work, it will show that not only do you understand but you are right by his side as his women." She was so right, I was annoyed because I didn't see him and letting my emotions get in the way instead of just going to see him for a few minutes bring him lunch which would of put a smile across his face. I realized that I had to stop having my moments of being scared, I have an amazing man that I prayed for God to send my way. If I keep getting upset and letting my fears get in the way I will lose him, which is the last thing I want. On Wednesday I missed him so I went to bring him dinner, I saw him for a few minutes but at the end of it all we was both satisfied. 

At times we let our selfish ways and the fear of getting hurt get in the way of us being happy.  Yes your heart has been broken and yes it hurts but you have to let it go. You have to remind yourself it was an experience and you needed to go through that heartbreak to grow, become a better version of yourself and to appreciate yourself even more than you did before. Trust in the love you have now, appreciate him more and more each and everyday, give him all of you, stop hiding who you are by putting your guard up because you are afraid. You deserved to be loved and you deserve to give someone the real YOU.  Whoever broke your heart before, he doesn't matter. That's your past, focus on what you have now and the love you both will share in the future.  Remember My Confident Dolls HE ISN'T THE ONE WHO BROKE YOUR HEART, So don't treat him like he is. 

            A Confident Love From Me To You

                               Xoxo Yanika 

My Confident Shorts... Encourage Not Discourage!

My Confident Shorts 

August 16, 2014 a beautiful Saturday which was yesterday, I woke up an such an amazing mood claiming that I was going to have an amazing day. I started my day with a prayer, followed by breakfast and some reading.  I was excited for later on in the evening where I would be attending my first BBQ of the summer, Can you believe that? I didn't go to not one BBQ and turn all the way up Lol so I was excited. I was feeling good while picking out my clothes, I had to be cute and sexy. I first decided to wear a maxi dress but then I said let me wear some shorts and a white button up shirt, cute, simple & sexy just like I wanted. As I was getting dress, I had my music turn up, just appreciating life. It's important My Confident Dolls to take a few minutes each and everyday to just appreciate what you have and be thankful. As I finish getting dressed, I finish my look with some MAC ruby woo  (my favorite) you can't go wrong with some red lipstick. I was feeling good, looking good and smelling good, yes today was going to be a good day. 

           (My cute, sexy & simple look) 

I left my house and met up with my homegirl, we planned to go to two BBqs, yes we were going to have a great night TURN UP TIME (Doing The Dougie Lol). The first BBQ was a birthday celebration for one of my homegirls, from the time I got there to the the time I left I had a BLAST. I definitely was shaking what my mama gave me in my confident shorts all night. I didn't want to leave but I made promises to one of my other homegirls to attend her BBQ. It was already midnight but I was ready to have some more fun, I was still in a great mood and I knew I was going to have a blast at the second BBQ. So as my homegirl and I are talking and walking to the second location, this car filled with girls stop at the red light as we crossed the street, they were talking but I didn't pay them no mind. As the light turned green, one of the girls yelled "That's not you Ma, shorts isn't a good look for you, get it together". At first I couldn't believe what I just heard, she said something else but I was so shocked that I didn't hear what else she said and then they speed off. I was shocked, hurt but most of all angry. What was wrong with my shorts? Absolutely nothing but to her it was a problem. WHY?! Part of me wished she would of said it to my face but I probably would of reacted in a not so polite way which isn't even in my character but when someone disrespects you anything can happen. But then again Iam happy she yelled it out for me to hear and went about her business but what was her purpose. I continued heading to the BBQ, she wasn't going to ruin my night. 

(@whitneydeececala, @shawebb, @_justkenya, @830virgo) 

Iam not going to lie I was hurt but I just prayed for her asking God to heal her soul. A million questions came through my mind, I just couldn't understand why it was so important for her to yell out her opinion to me. She probably thought it would of affected me to the point I would never wear shorts again as she stated it wasn't a good look. If I would of heard her say that to me 5 years ago when I was afraid to wear shorts because I didn't have an ounce of confidence, I would of definitely listened to her.

 Each and everyday I try to understand why are some females so vindictive and make it their duty to bash and break other women down. Why be so negative? I wonder if negativity bring them happiness or give them some type of power. Why couldn't she give me a compliment such as "Girl, you're killing those shorts" which I was (Iam  Not Cocky Just  Confident As You All Should Be My Confident Dolls) or she could of said "Hey, you look nice" but instead she used words to try to bring me down. This girl is someone daughter and probably someone mother and would be pissed if someone told her something to bring her down. 

(@kurvykatie,@careyadela,@mo_pumpsngloss, @ambitious_queen_13) 

We are all the same at the end of the day, we are all women with different skin tone, characteristics, and abilities to achieve our dreams. We all want to be successful and make our dreams come true but some females instead of bringing other females up and inspiring and motivating them to do better and feel better about themselves, they rather just sit back and bash and bring them down. Absolutely nothing was wrong with my shorts, I looked good. I get it Iam not society average size, Iam a plus size women, so what I LOVE MYSELF. 

                  (@_virgogurl_) 

Society make us feel as if we can't wear certain outfits matter of fact they say we can't wear certain outfits. Excuse my French but F@$k  That and kiss my A$$ for those with a negative mind. Iam going to wear what I want when I want as long as Iam comfortable and happy in it. When did clothes have a size limit to it, Iam tired of society and people telling anyone not jut plus size females what to wear. If a female is skinny and she wear a see through dress, her bones are showing and if a plus size girl wear the same dress, her rolls are showing. Either way someone will say something negative about one of them wearing the dress. 

( @selenam80, @_khlo, @kingarrie, @addicted2myfashion) 

BEAUTY Doesn't Have a WEIGHT LIMIT Either Does STYLE! Style is the best way to say who you are without having to speak as Rachel Zoe once said. I love girls who compliment each other, I think it's amazing to tell another female just like you that she's pretty or that she's doing her thing. But too many females feels like it's a competition these days. It's ok to be nice, actually it's great to be nice. Give credit when it's due, you don't get paid to be negative or by hating.No Matter What Size You Are, If You Have Rolls, A stomach Or 2 Or No Stomach. Big Thighs, Big Butt, Small Butt. It Doesn't Matter What Shape You Are Because Regardless Of Anything You Are Beautiful. So Rock Your Hips, Be Confident, Be You, Be Sexy. YOU MATTER & YOU'RE WORTH IT  MY CONFIDENT DOLLS and don't you forget it. 

                  (@sewbrooklyn) 

I pray each and everyday that all females start encouraging each other and not discourage one another. It's bad enough that we live  in a crazy world why make it more difficult for the next female trying to live in it. It was no reason for that girl to tell me what she told me but I guess it made her feel good about herself when she should feel horrible or it gave her some sense of satisfaction. As Iam writing this Iam still praying for her, it's sad she felt that way only if she knew her words couldn't  break me and she always knew that my confidence is on a 100. Iam just sitting here thinking about what if she would of told you those words and you weren't so confident like I am, now you would of been broken. 

(@delisedanielle, @mamafitt @_chalarae, @urban_boheme86) 

When I started "Confidence Is You", my goal which I accomplished to hundreds already and it is still my goal was to help build the self esteem of those who doesn't feel confident, help them with their worth, reassure them that they are beautiful and that they matter. I don't want anyone to feel how I felt years ago, it wasn't a good feeling at all. I was miserable and I didn't know what happiness was because I let the opinions of others around me and what I saw in society make me feel as if I didn't matter and I wasn't pretty enough due to my size. I don't want anyone to feel that way, how can anyone live that way. I just want us all to love each other and just be there for one another. What's so wrong with doing that? Being so negative towards someone else doesn't bring joy  into your life, it makes your character look bad. When you give other females compliment, trust and believe you just made her smile and one more thing it doesn't make you look Thristy. Like I always say Thick Thighs In A Tight Dress, Loving Every Part Of ME & You Should Feel The Same Way As Well. Never Be Afraid To Wear What You Want To Wear Scared Of The Opinions Of Others. I've Been There Scared To Wear Certain Things Because  I Was The "Big Girl" & People Will Say Things Abt Me But I've Learn That I Have To Make Myself Happy & Live My Life For Me. If It Makes You Happy, You're Comfortable  & You Feel Sexy while Wearing It Then Wear It. Do What Makes You Happy, Be Confident But Most of All ALWAYS BE YOURSELF!!!!!

Stop bashing another female, stop trying to put her down, stop judging her, stop trying to break her down. Uplift her, compliment her, show her love, give her inspiration and motivation. We have to come together and encourage one another and not discourage one another. I will fight to make "Confidence is you" a movement where all my ladies feel as one. Thank You To All My Confident Dolls For Sharing Their Pictures Wearing Their Shorts Confidently and Proundly. CONFIDENCE IS ME, CONFIDENCE IS YOU, CONFIDENCE IS US!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

   A Confident Love From Me To You

                     Xoxo Yanika 

Don't Lose Hope, Live By Faith.

Have you ever been so down you just felt as if nothing will ever go right in your life? To the point that it makes you want to give up on everything and most of all yourself. You're doing everything that you're suppose to do, praying, holding on to faith but nothing seems to work. It feels as if everything is just getting worse, you don't want to give up but what else are you suppose to do? I say DON'T GIVE UP!!!!! 

I've been there and to be honest these past few months have been very challenging for me. Yes I talk about a lot of things in my personal life and I don't mind except for one. Last week while looking on Instagram one of  you queens (My confident Dolls) talked about her testimony on how for almost a year she has been looking for a job, applying everywhere and nothing would come her way. She fought and fought and prayed and prayed but nothing would come her way. She was angry, bitter and discouraged at God because she felt God was overlooking her. As many times as she wanted to give up, she didn't. It was hard but she didn't give up. Last week as I mentioned she posted a picture of herself smiling and her caption said "I got a job", I smiled for her and it's at this very moment I didn't feel discouraged anymore. She also said  when she left things in God hands to handle everything came around for her. She also stated to keep going and not to give up. 

The reason why I was inspired by her post is because at that very moment I was feeling discouraged. I haven't been working for a year, I went from having an amazing job I love to having to choose between my dreams and my job. Yes my boss made me choose between both, it was a very difficult decision for me to make.  I was confused but I did what I had to do which was to follow my heart. At the moment I was living my dreams, I was weeks away from my book coming out and I wasn't going to stop anything from following my dreams. MAKE SURE YOU MAKE YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE!!! I knew that God had spoken to me to make my choice, the next day I went in cleaned out my office and just like that I was out without a job. I prayed about it and I didn't regret my decision. I just put all my focus on CIY which I did. The book came out and I was really busy which was truly a blessing. 

Months later the publishing company I was with decided they were going to close the company down so I panicked. It's not like I was receiving an income from my books but knowing it was going to be unavailable broke my heart. I searched and searched for months for a job, I wanted to do more things with my brand and I was unable to because everything cost money. I prayed, I went to job interviews, I did application after application never got a call back. 

It was becoming very frustrating and I was starting to feel angry. I was just depressed from time to time, honestly Confidence Is You keeps me content and  sane. At the end of the day Confidence Is You comes first because that is my dream come true. Iam fortunate to have my parents help me out if I need it but there is nothing better than getting your own money. As many times I wanted to share my story I didn't. I don't know why I think because I was ashamed but I learned to realize it was life.  It was no reason for me to be ashamed, we all go through things in life. We all have different situations we are dealing with that we wish we didn't have to deal with but once again it's life. 

I knew things were going to come around for me in due time. I knew god was just putting me through a test to see if I break. Remember my Confident  dolls God won't put you through anything he knew you wouldn't be able to handle. I will continue to fight my battle and I held on to my faith. I wasn't going to give up, I would keep my head up high and keep on going. Life is a roller coaster, we will go through ups and downs. Nothing will go as plan because God has a plan for us, as much as it gets hard and you want to give up. Keep pushing through, show God that indeed you are a fighter. 

Nothing can stop what is meant for you to happen, throughout the years I've learned the patience is the key. You can't rush what is meant to happen for you, give it time. Even when things look bad, give thanks cause things could be worse. So no matter what you are dealing with be thankful. God has a plan, your path is just as beautiful and crooked as it should be. Find strength in your pain and let it be the force to keep you going. Trust in his timing, tuck away your worries, and wipe your tears, and allow faith to take precedence. 

Don't give up, in due time everything will look up for you. As long as you're trying God will do the rest. Live By Faith My Confident Dolls, I hope that I gave you some type of courage to keep on going. As the days go by Iam fighting while doing what I love which is inspiring and motivating you all through Confidence Is You, I know my day will come. As long as you believe and have faith, everything you desire will come true. 

    A Cofident Love From Me To You

                     Xoxo Yanika