TWO Blessed ( Happy 2nd Bday My Love)

To My Forever Love......Messiah, 

I just want to start by saying I Love You and how blessed that you have chosen me to be your Mommy. How are you 2 years old already? It feels as if it was just yesterday I prayed for you and here you are screaming Mommy which is music to my heart. I know you can’t read this right now but one day you will so Iam writing you this letter so one day you can hold on to it and read to your children. 

You amaze me each and everyday and it’s amazing to see you grow into your own with such a bright and unique personality. You’re so smart, so caring, so passionate about what you love, your eager to learn amazes me. You’re so independent and the simple fact you will try until you can do it on your own makes me smile. I want you to know that there is nothing in this world that you can’t accomplish. If you want to do it, baby YOU CAN DO IT! I will always be here to push you into your greatness potential because I believe in you. Remember MJ, nothing in life is impossible to achieve. You were BORN CONFIDENT so you got this Baby. 

You are everything I prayed for and more, you gave my life purpose and made it more meaningful. I can’t even remember who I was before you were born, you made me better and you gave me the courage to be exactly who I am and the confidence to be the best mother that I can be to you. You give me strength to keep going for the both of us. I thank god for you every second of the day, you are indeed my biggest blessing. Your laugh, your smile, from your head to your toes, Boy I Love You! 

This journey of being your mother hasn’t been easy, Iam still learning but we did it baby, 2 years in and a lifetime to go. I will make mistakes but I will learn from them and be better. We in this together, I got you and you got me. We will conquer the world day by day and I promise to be there every step of the way cheering you on and reminding you that YOU MATTER, YOU ARE IMPORTANT, YOU ARE BLESSED & You Can Be ANYTHING That You Want To Be. 

Two My Rib and My Heart, I am beyond blessed to call you my son, You Are Two Amazing, Thank You for being perfect. I promise to protect you, care for you, cherish you, spoil you and love you unconditionally for the rest of my life and beyond. 

Happy 2nd Birthday Messiah!!!!! 

           I LOVE YOU!!!! 

Love, Mommy 

How bad do you want it?

So I didn't plan on writing a blog this morning  but God spoke to me and said " Write, type whatever it is that comes to mind". I have those moments when he just speaks to me about what I need to do and sometimes I listen. Tonight I decided to listen, I haven't posted a blog since April 1st so why not. How do I feel at this very moment? I feel good, I feel motivated, I feel scared, I feel confused, I feel at peace. I feel  so many emotions but that’s how I feel at this very moment. But despite how I feel, Iam Blessed and thankful for everything that I’ve dealt with and the things that Iam going through now. 


Life happens, one week you can be good and than the following week something could happen to change your mood upside down but what I've learned is that no matter what you have to keep moving and put yourself first. It's not easy but it's important to do so no matter how hard it gets. A few weeks ago, I was in my feelings where I couldn't even be there for MJ as I wanted to be but I knew that he deserved his mommy so I pushed myself to be there for him. Life is HARD but it's a BLESSING. I overcame what I was going through because being sad and miserable isn't going to do anything positive for me. It's just going to slow me down. It's ok to feel all of these emotions and be able to work on them, ask for guidance and understanding and move on. I talk to GOD ALOT and he shows me signs and talk back to me. He reminds me that everything will be just fine and to do the work as in focus more on what my calling is.


I can't ignore my passion and what I am suppose to do anymore, I have to get shit done and kick ass. I have so many dreams and I know I am capable of making them a reality but I am not consistent which is my BIGGEST FLAW but no more excuses and just waiting for me to do it tomorrow. Everything that you envision on doing with yourself and your life, you're capable of doing it. We all have the same 24 hours in a day, we all have endless possibilities to WIN. It’s all in us to WIN, we just have to keep moving forward through it all. 

I feel like we go through things at times so it can motivate us to focus on what we need to do in order to succeed. You can’t focus too much on what you’re going through because then you will lose focus on what you’re suppose to be doing. Don’t allow anything to stop you, you have the power to overcome anything and be the best version of yourself. I haven’t written a blog in weeks and it’s ok because here I am at 7:53am writing this blog. If it’s in you, bring it out and be consistent about making your ideas a reality. 

How bad do you want it? Ask yourself this question DAILY and make shit happen. It can take weeks, months, years but believe in yourself so much that you will manifest your goals into your dream come true. You got this, We Got This!  

          A Confident Love From Me To You

                            Xoxo, Yanika