Dear Messiah

Dear Messiah,

Just a week ago, you turned ONE YEARS OLD. Did you know that I prayed for you? I use to dream about you and asked God  in my prayers to send me a child that will forever be part of me, Be a mixture of me and Daddy, that I will love unconditionally with every part of me , protect and provide for and be there for always through the good, the bad, Happy and sad. I prayed for you and here you are everything I dreamed of and more. 

I found out I was having you on September 28,2016 at 2pm, it was a beautiful Wednesday afternoon and at that very moment my life changed for the better and I loved you from that very second. From the womb, you were perfect. I use to read to you everyday and listen to music which my favorite song to play for you each and everyday was Lauryn Hill “ Zion”, you probably got tired of listening to it because after awhile ( 7 Months pregnant with you) you used to kick me when I would play it. I take it that it was your song as well and kicked me because you was happy to hear it LOL.  But that song describe perfectly how I felt being pregnant with you. 

Every time I would go see you for an ultrasound, my love for you grew 100x more and made me more anxious to see you as well as hold you. You never showed your face, every time we went it, you showed us your back. You gave the nurses a lot of problems for us to see you but no matter what your heartbeat was stronger by the day letting us know you were strong, healthy and perfect. But on My Birthday, you should us a glimpse of you just so we could see if you were a girl or a boy and when the nurse said “Happy Birthday, It’s A Boy”, I cried tears of joy.

I was really pregnant with my son which was you and I couldn’t had thank god enough for blessing me with you. 40 weeks is a long time but we did it, I fed you everything you wanted, I spoiled you and everyone else around me. WHATEVER YOU WANTED, YOU GOT!! We drove Daddy crazy with feeding us Oxtails or chicken and broccoli, oh we can’t forget the caramel cone haigan Daz ice cream. You never made mommy sick which was great and you waited till nighttime to move the most but it’s was ok because it was pure joy feeling you move inside my tummy. 

We celebrated your arrival with over 200 family and friends on April 9, 2017, It was so beautiful to see how much people loved you already and was waiting for your arrival. After that, I was anxious to see you. I would count down the days till we saw each other for the first time. I just wanted to hold you and kiss you up, I was excited for the future was with you. You had already inspired me to become better and do better so I can be the best mother that I can be to you. 

It was a Tuesday, May 30th and I was craving a jerk chicken burrito and I remember Daddy telling me we will go right after our doctors appointment. I was so happy to go hear your heartbeat and afterwards go and get that jerk chicken burrito. But our plans didn’t go as I thought it would instead I was admitted to the hospital after our check up which to me was 100x  better than going to get a jerk chicken burrito. I wasn't even thinking of eating anything but to only see you and finally hold you in my arms. It wasn't easy, you took your time to come. You were so comfortable that it was already the next day which was actually my due date. 

I was scared, anxious, happy all in one but the after waiting all day for you to come around 7:00pm the Doctor said they needed to take you out. I was scared, Daddy was scared but we knew that was the best thing to do so you can be delivered safely to us. As they were taking me to the other room, I prayed and was ready to meet you. At EXACTLY 8:25PM, YOU WERE BORN. When I heard you cry for the very first time, my heart explode with JOY, I finally laid my eyes on you and you were perfect.

And here we are a whole year later and I must admit this has been the nest year of my life. You changed me for the better and inspired me in so many ways that I just want to be the best person that I can be so I can be the best mother that I can be to you. It has been amazing watching you grow from saying your very first word to walking. You were made for me and there isn't a second that goes by that I don't thank God for you. You are indeed my dream come true and to know that you are mines forever is a true blessing.

I don't know how old you will be when you read this letter, but I want you to know to always put God first, know that everything that you want to accomplish you can, anything that you want to become, you can. There is no limit for you, you matter, you are worth it and you are important. I will always be here for you and be right  by your side, Confidence is You Son. Always go for what you believe, I LOVE YOU more each day that goes by. I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU, Thank You for being my son.

Love, MOMMY!



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