Messiah Mommy

August 31 marked 3 months since I gave birth to my bundle of joy and these past 3 months have been the happiest moments of my life. During my pregnancy I didn't blog or even write anything for that matter, I just wanted to enjoy my pregnancy to the fullest. It was a brand new experience for me and I wanted to make every second of it count. Iam shock myself that I didn't blog about my pregnancy but the one thing I love about writing is that you can always write about what happen in the past, present or in the future. My pregnancy was beyond amazing, I had an amazing pregnancy from beginning to end. I didn't have any morning sickness, I didn't throw up not once, I was good. I was tired most of the time which is normal, I was tired all day and night but besides my pregnancy was good. 

During my pregnancy I didn't feel like myself meaning I didn't want to dress up, I didn't want to put makeup on, I didn't want to do anything with myself but to put on some leggings, a tshirt, some sneakers and call it a day. I just wanted to be comfortable but I have to admit I wasn't too confident. Don't get me wrong, I truly enjoyed my body transforming to bring life into this world. I enjoyed being pregnant but the simple fact I didn't feel like dressing up or doing anything with myself just made me lack confidence. 

There were times, I didn't even feel pretty at all. Part of me was beating myself up, I felt like I worked to hard to be who I am and to be confident and now I don't even feel like either. But it hit me one day when I looked at myself in the mirror and suddenly he kicked me. I took that as a reminder that it's ok that I don't feel like dressing up and putting on makeup. What mattered the most is that I was going to give birth to my son who is going to love me unconditionally and see me and accept me for who I am. 

After giving birth,  I was back to myself literally a few days after. I was ready to " look cute" as I would put it. In the midst of being back to myself, I felt more confident. I felt better then I ever felt before and I love it. I used to hate myself and it took a while for me to accept every inch of me. But now that I gave birth to a child, Iam more in love with my body than I ever been before in my whole entire life. I gained  weight but that's ok, got some extra few stretch marks but that's ok, my butt got bigger and that's ok. 

I wouldn't trade getting pregnant for anything in the world and here I am 3 months later loving myself more than I ever did before. Iam more confident and I appreciate all the changes my body had to make for my son. I am and forever will be my best title...MESSIAH MOMMY.  

A Confident Love From Me To You

             Xoxo, Yanika