Have you ever been so down you just felt as if nothing will ever go right in your life? To the point that it makes you want to give up on everything and most of all yourself. You're doing everything that you're suppose to do, praying, holding on to faith but nothing seems to work. It feels as if everything is just getting worse, you don't want to give up but what else are you suppose to do? I say DON'T GIVE UP!!!!!
I've been there and to be honest these past few months have been very challenging for me. Yes I talk about a lot of things in my personal life and I don't mind except for one. Last week while looking on Instagram one of you queens (My confident Dolls) talked about her testimony on how for almost a year she has been looking for a job, applying everywhere and nothing would come her way. She fought and fought and prayed and prayed but nothing would come her way. She was angry, bitter and discouraged at God because she felt God was overlooking her. As many times as she wanted to give up, she didn't. It was hard but she didn't give up. Last week as I mentioned she posted a picture of herself smiling and her caption said "I got a job", I smiled for her and it's at this very moment I didn't feel discouraged anymore. She also said when she left things in God hands to handle everything came around for her. She also stated to keep going and not to give up.
The reason why I was inspired by her post is because at that very moment I was feeling discouraged. I haven't been working for a year, I went from having an amazing job I love to having to choose between my dreams and my job. Yes my boss made me choose between both, it was a very difficult decision for me to make. I was confused but I did what I had to do which was to follow my heart. At the moment I was living my dreams, I was weeks away from my book coming out and I wasn't going to stop anything from following my dreams. MAKE SURE YOU MAKE YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE!!! I knew that God had spoken to me to make my choice, the next day I went in cleaned out my office and just like that I was out without a job. I prayed about it and I didn't regret my decision. I just put all my focus on CIY which I did. The book came out and I was really busy which was truly a blessing.
Months later the publishing company I was with decided they were going to close the company down so I panicked. It's not like I was receiving an income from my books but knowing it was going to be unavailable broke my heart. I searched and searched for months for a job, I wanted to do more things with my brand and I was unable to because everything cost money. I prayed, I went to job interviews, I did application after application never got a call back.
It was becoming very frustrating and I was starting to feel angry. I was just depressed from time to time, honestly Confidence Is You keeps me content and sane. At the end of the day Confidence Is You comes first because that is my dream come true. Iam fortunate to have my parents help me out if I need it but there is nothing better than getting your own money. As many times I wanted to share my story I didn't. I don't know why I think because I was ashamed but I learned to realize it was life. It was no reason for me to be ashamed, we all go through things in life. We all have different situations we are dealing with that we wish we didn't have to deal with but once again it's life.
I knew things were going to come around for me in due time. I knew god was just putting me through a test to see if I break. Remember my Confident dolls God won't put you through anything he knew you wouldn't be able to handle. I will continue to fight my battle and I held on to my faith. I wasn't going to give up, I would keep my head up high and keep on going. Life is a roller coaster, we will go through ups and downs. Nothing will go as plan because God has a plan for us, as much as it gets hard and you want to give up. Keep pushing through, show God that indeed you are a fighter.
Nothing can stop what is meant for you to happen, throughout the years I've learned the patience is the key. You can't rush what is meant to happen for you, give it time. Even when things look bad, give thanks cause things could be worse. So no matter what you are dealing with be thankful. God has a plan, your path is just as beautiful and crooked as it should be. Find strength in your pain and let it be the force to keep you going. Trust in his timing, tuck away your worries, and wipe your tears, and allow faith to take precedence.
Don't give up, in due time everything will look up for you. As long as you're trying God will do the rest. Live By Faith My Confident Dolls, I hope that I gave you some type of courage to keep on going. As the days go by Iam fighting while doing what I love which is inspiring and motivating you all through Confidence Is You, I know my day will come. As long as you believe and have faith, everything you desire will come true.
A Cofident Love From Me To You
Xoxo Yanika
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