Does he value your worth? Does he respect you? Does he appreciate you and love you for all of you? Did he get a chance to know the real you? Did you get a chance to know the real him? So why lay on your back for him to take deep strokes inside of you when you aren't even sure he will protect your heart?. You like him, I get that but why put yourself in a position where you will get hurt? Iam not judging, I've been there in the past. I knew my worth, I knew what I wanted and I knew what I deserved but my not having no confidence at all and the thought of no one ever loving me for me made me stay in situations where I felt safe in while giving him a piece everytime we layed down with each other in bed. I knew there was no future with him but I didn't want to be lonely. I thought a few strokes here and there would cure my loneliness but it only made me shed a few tears every night hoping someone one day will come find me and love me for exactly who I was.
I don't want you to go through that, I don't want you to feel that you aren't worthy of the love you deserve. I want you to lay on your back for someone who will have your back. I know that you know your worth but you refuse to believe that you are indeed worth it. I remember at times telling myself "Stop doing this to yourself, you deserve more" but when you gotten your heart broken by someone you trusted with all of you and not having no confidence at all you will doubt the good things that you deserve. I used to think if the man I loved hurt me then I wasn't worthy of a man to actually love me. It took awhile for me to gain my confidence and once I realized that confidence was indeed me, myself & I, I refused to settle with anyone who didn't deserve to have me. I refused to give my precious jewel to someone who didn't know the difference between a Diamond and a stone. I couldn't put myself in situations I knew I would get hurt and situations I couldn't blame him for hurting me because I knew he wasn't the one from the jump.
I knew that I deserve the love I knew I was worthy of. My boyfriend as of today, it took a while for me to open up to him sexually. I just wanted to take my time and I wanted him to realize my worth before he touched me in places I never knew existed. I wanted every stroke he gave me to mean something, I wanted the tears I shed to come from how good he made me feel not the type of tears that have you wondering once he left. I wanted our sex to mean something and what I realized is that sex is better when it means something. When you know the moans you scream and the strokes he gives you will bring you both together to a higher level of Extacy but at the same time the intimacy in which you both desire. That's when it means something!!!!
Iam tired of knowing my Queens are in a position in which I know they know don't need to be in. I don't care how great the sex is, if he doesn't value your worth, it means you're just giving a piece of your Diamond to someone who doesn't truly respect you. Why can't you wait? Why rush? You're worthy of someone finding you and giving you everything you dreamed of. Stop settling, your Diamond is meant to shine as bright as you. It's too many guys out here in this world for you to just be dealing with someone who you have to chase to love you. If you have to beg someone to love you, respect you and care for you then they don't deserve you.
You're amazing, you are worth so much more, you deserve the world and if you are patient enough to wait for it then the one who is meant for you will find you and give you exactly what you deserve. You're a Queen who deserves a King not a peasant. A Queen with a Diamond who will no longer settle and walks with her head up high because she knows her worth.
Be Patient, You're Worth It. Protect Your Diamond!!!!
A Confident Love From Me To You
Xoxo, Yanika
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