One thing I did come to terms with is that nothing last forever, I was so worried about not being where I wanted to be in life that I didn't embrace the fact that God gave me a chance to see the beautiful age of 28 years old. I didn't trust him and I had no faith in him that things in my life would eventually get better and greater things will come from the things I was going through. I remember celebrating my birthday at a lounge that night when I just wanted to be home but the night turned out to be a great night with my friends who came out to celebrate with me and having my love by my side but deep down inside I wasn't happy. For the next few weeks of me being 28 years old, I was lost. I just didn't know what my true purpose was in life, I felt that because of my book coming out and being unavailable in the matter of 8 months, I felt that maybe it wasn't what I was determined to do. It was a battle but I was determined to fight it and for once be patient and wait till God gave me the answers that I needed.
See one thing that we all do is that when we go through something it's hard to just stay focus and be patient until everything comes together. Who wants to just wait but at times the best thing to do is wait because good things matter of fact greater things comes to those who wait. So My confident dolls, have no worries, know in due time everything will be just fine. Just pray and be patient, DON'T GIVE UP!
I was determined and slowly God started to lead me to my path. My book was something that I couldn't give up on, too many people depended on me. I did my research and I knew it was God giving me the sign to do it on my own, I was scared at first but I knew that I was capable of doing it. I found a publishing company that would only print out my books and I would be in charge of everything else. When I knew I was capable of doing it, I found the happiness I was searching for. I wanted the book to be bigger than what it was before, I wanted a new cover, more chapters and just a new energy to it and Guess what? I did and I made it happen.
See my confident dolls what I was stressing and worrying about, now is my Joy. This is why you can't give up and you have to keep on fighting any battle that you are facing because you will come though it, you will see a bright shining star at the end of it all. The devil is a liar and nothing/no one can stop what is meant for you. Once I held on to Faith, everything positive started happening for me. I now have a job that I am truly in love with and I have a brand as well as a book that I built and will continue to fight for.
So for once as my birthday started to approach I was happy and I didn't feel an ounce of what I felt for the past 2 years. I was in amazing place in my life, I was content. I may not be exactly where I want to be but I have everything I need. Just writing this blog and given the chance to wake up this morning was a gift and Iam truly thankful for it. For my birthday this year, i just wanted to wake up and Thank God for allowing me to see the age of 29 then go to work which I did and had a good day at work and then I just wanted to be with my love which I told him a few weeks prior when he asked me what I wanted to do for my birthday.
For once I didn't want to do much, I wanted to do something simple. Everyone that knows me thought I was going crazy because I always do something for my birthday but not this year. I had no clue what my boyfriend had planned for us, it was a surprise. The only thing I was told was to be ready at 8pm which I was and when I got outside it was a car waiting to take me to my destination. He still didn't tell me where we were going when we were in the car but I enjoyed it. When the car finally stopped, I got out and he held my hand as I took a few steps, it was a restaurant I always wanted to go to called "Don Coqui". We had an amazing dinner and well let me just say the night ended beautifully. He really put a smile on my face, it was simple but he made me happy and that's what mattered.
Iam 29 years old now and Iam ready for what this age will bring me. It is the last year of my twenties and Iam going to make it a great one. I know it won't be perfect, I will face some difficulties but I learned that when you go through things it only makes you stronger. So whatever it is, I know that God will be by my side and I will overcome them. Nothing and no one can break me or stop what is meant for me. I know how to hold on to my Faith with all that I have and just trust God.
So my Confident dolls, never give up. Even if you aren't where you want to be in life, keep fighting because one day you will be. Nothing comes easy, you have to truly fight for what you believe in. Don't let your age stop you, I thought turning 28 years old last year was turning 50 years old but not at all. You can achieve anything you put your mind into at any age. At 29 years old, I know this is only the beginning for me. I have a lot to achieve and I will keep on fighting.
A Confident Love From Me To You
Xoxo, Yanika
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